i loved you more than any friend. there will never be another one who comes close. no one to compare to. no one to replace you. there’s definitely a void in me, and it took this long for it to fully hit me. i woke up today feeling like i had to question life about everything. it was why this and why that, how and where, what the point of this is and who thought to make that okay. i’m scared and i’m frustrated. i feel terribly lonely all of a sudden. this dark, heavy haze is weighing in me. i can’t breathe and my heart is skipping off beat. i have the worst anxiety, i’m restless. one minute i’m reminiscing about goofy nights up w/ the sun 6AM breakfast at iHop’s then shopping the Forums w/ niggas who thought that would make us DTF and then the next minute it hits me that you’re no longer here. you’re really gone. i’ll never hear your voice again, i’ll never wake up next to you, i’ll never cuddle on the couch with you or plan the future with you again. i’ll never see your name on caller iD, i’ll never see your incoming txt. i’ll never be able to call you to vent or to escape. i’ll never have you again. i’m scared.